Here goes...day one!

I'm off to Sydney as we speak to visit my sister and brother in law. With good intentions to assist my sister recovering from surgery in also secretly looking forward to trashy tv, a block or two of chocolate and some relaxation from my crazy world (which is largely dominated by my over thinking mind!)

Was reminded today of how grateful I am to be in a new job where people are supportive and caring. We still work hard but things are more in perspective on that front. One other upside is that people don't know me!!! I'm excited because it means I can avoid questions about my former relationship and little miss muffets which were inevitably followed by a sigh and a comment like 'you'll find somebody else'. I acknowledge people's good intentions but really the situation sucks enough without everyone I work with knowing my business!

All in all a good day :) topped off with cuddles from my fave 3month old!

Hope you have all your Oz day decorations organized for tomorrow :)

Kick Start

Yep I've been slack in terms of blogging. Guess I've had a lot of down days recently and just couldn't find the effort to blog. But now going to make an effort to blog once a day for 30 days. It dawned on me today amidst the angst of being single I also have some funny stories to share.

So get set for 30 days of stories about my new life will no doubt include funny stories about setting up a house, changing a million light globes, selecting tenants, navigating singledom and a new job!! I can't promise every post will be positive cause as I've said before some people and situations are just stupid and there ain't nothing I can do about that!

Finally a new year

Lets see what 2012 will bring. It didn't start off as planned but I'm in control now and things are going to improve. I'm grateful for all the support in my life but it's a strange feeling starting over again. I feel alone, exposed and lacking in some confidence but I need to stay positive. Despite what some people may think, my life isn't over because I'm not married or don't have children it's just different to what people expect. I'm healthy, have a great job, wonderful friends, property, ambition and kind heart. I'm a good person and I'm worthy of being happy I don't have to settle for second best. This year is going to be wonderful.

Ok, enough of a pep talk for myself...I'm off to bed!

Roller coaster ride from hell

Im sick of the highs and lows, twists and turns and feeling shaken to the core. Might sound dramatic but my heart has been broken and the fall out isn't fun. How I long for the simple days of teenage breakups (although at the time were herendous!)

But I keep saying, one thing at a time...

I am surviving.....just!

Well it's finally Friday and thank goodness I say! It's been a tiring week, not for any great reason in particular just am looking forward to the weekend and being able to sleep in. I don't have to worry about anyone else except myself.....although this in itself is a strange concept to get used to again. I still think about my former 'family' and miss the dynamic that we had. I know I can't go back but now I am facing a new reality which is very slowly starting to take shape. I'm looking forward to seeing what the next twelve months has in store for me....

ANOTHER new beginning

Well it's been a while since I posted and things have certainly changed. Life got turned upside down overnight and it's still all falling back into some sort of order. I'm struggling going from being a family person to being single again but I am lucky to have amazing friends and family to help me through.

To be honest it's crap finding that you have to face another new being and yes i know it is reality but it's also a big pain. I know it will all get easier and I will learn to trust again and be happy. In the mean time, it's day by day for me and we will see what happens.

Tears

You sometimes it all just gets too much and I need a good cry. Well that happened today big time! So emotional and irritated beyond words so the only thing I could do was cry. I tell you I feel a million times better now for it, although I'm running low on tissues!!