Trying to be positive today was hard, between rainy weather and packing up my desk to move to a new building it was a challenge. But I had a work out to look forward to with a few girlfriends tonight (although I was a bit worried about the pain I'd be in afterwards!)
I had an appointment with a counsellor this week which left me drained but also a bit relieved. Let's be honest.....grieving sucks. I'm just putting it out there but having to walk away from a family and in particular two children does require you to go through a grieving process. At times I struggle with things like walking past children's clothing or toys and other times I am aware that I am missing significant occasions. It is very hard to deal with this stuff and I just wish it was easier. But some very wise friends have told me that it will get easier and part of that is riding the waves of grief. Some days are good and other times you are struck by a wave of emotion that leaves you in tears in the strangest place....like on the bus or in a restaurant (very embarrassing!)
On a positive note, I get to catch up with a great friend tomorrow and am so looking forward to that and maybe a cocktail!
hope you all have a happy Friday!
i think you are doing alot better than you think you are.
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