95 Questions - part 1

The following is taken from 95 Questions to Help You Find Meaning and Happiness. I saw this and thought it was a good way to kick start me thinking about the way forward.

I won't get through all 95 questions tonight but over the next few days i will tackle them all....

1. In one sentence, who are you? I'm just trying to be myself, honest, loving, friendly, generous however I am well know for over thinking and analysing things
2. Why do you matter? because I am awesome!
3. What is your life motto? Live your life out loud
4. What’s something you have that everyone wants? freedom and time on my own
5. What is missing in your life? my own children
6. What’s been on your mind most lately? loss, grief, the future
7. Happiness is a ________? being content in yourself
8. What stands between you and happiness? myself and my over thinking
9. What do you need most right now? my friends
10. What does the child inside you long for? approval and acceptance

Day 16 :)

Trying to be positive today was hard, between rainy weather and packing up my desk to move to a new building it was a challenge. But I had a work out to look forward to with a few girlfriends tonight (although I was a bit worried about the pain I'd be in afterwards!)

I had an appointment with a counsellor this week which left me drained but also a bit relieved. Let's be honest.....grieving sucks. I'm just putting it out there but having to walk away from a family and in particular two children does require you to go through a grieving process. At times I struggle with things like walking past children's clothing or toys and other times I am aware that I am missing significant occasions. It is very hard to deal with this stuff and I just wish it was easier. But some very wise friends have told me that it will get easier and part of that is riding the waves of grief. Some days are good and other times you are struck by a wave of emotion that leaves you in tears in the strangest place....like on the bus or in a restaurant (very embarrassing!)

On a positive note, I get to catch up with a great friend tomorrow and am so looking forward to that and maybe a cocktail!

hope you all have a happy Friday!

Day 13 - game face

So I'm sitting on the bus and trying to prepare myself for another week. Trying not to preempt anything but focusing on staying positive even of something unexpected happens.

I do love a little bit of country music and below is part of the song 'Not Ready to make Nice' by the Dixie Chicks. It played on my iPod a short time ago and I think it will be my song of the week and remind me to hold firm, stand my ground and stick up for myself.

"I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and I don't have time
To go round and round and round

It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell, can't bring myself
To do what it is you think I should
What it is you think I should"

Miss motivated

yay for me and my friends doing some exercise thus arvo!! I feel good and proud of myself (and also very very unfit!!)

This week my goal is to continue on the exercise regime and focus on looking hot in a new dress (which I will buy very soon!)

My other goals this week include, finish backing up everything on my computer, eat healthier and try to sleep more than 4 hours in a row!

I've been slack

So I've been busy lately and have neglected to blog...oops!

It's been an up and down few days but I'm feeling quite positive today. I've been productive, house work done, visited friends, grocery shopping finished....now time to relax :)

Tomorrow I have a quiet day planned and am going to enjoy every minute. Apart that is from the jogging/running part in the evening!! Time for some better eating habits and exercise....wish me luck (I'm gonna need it!!)

Day 8 ........

Not much to say today....missing someone special and thinking of her today and always.

Day 7 - highs and lows

So I was off to a good start but some over thinking occurred while on the bus coming home. Still a bit fragile and off to dinner with friends which turned into a few tears. I was able to quickly recover though. I think it's important to have a cry every now and again. I feel less tense afterwards :)

Today I'm grateful for friends, family, funny movies and food (mainly a choc top dipped in popcorn!!!)